I'm writing 4 the sec time.

Just finish badminton...i felt tat i reli need exercise...i'm stress out.Not academic mostly,bt 'U'..my mind keep thinking of u...'wat u doin now?','who r u wif now','anything happen?'....thinking bout the ques 'anything happen' is silly..Of course u are happy after i gone...plus the new bf u had..The world never felt tat good..1 2 3 4 5......I cover my eyes n take a deep breathe..6 7 8 9 10..I blew it out..i did tat occasionally..everytime i breathe it out i hope i can forget u once n for all n put everything behind..........................I lie down on the bed at 3 pm today..cant slip...thinking of u...when i fall asleep i dreamt u n ur bf hate me a lot..I hardly remember wat both of u did,bt sadly u hurt me a lot..My heart bleeds.....when i wake up,looking at the clock it shows 5 pm..my head felt pain as thu i din slept....NIGHTMARE..Tis instant,i pray pray n pray...'god giv me some guidance,i'm suffering'...I knew i'm a bad guy.God wont help bad guy..Perhaps tis SERVE ME RITE after doin so many bad things...............................................................................................


Seating in front of the comp,i'm half naked,sweaty..I'm speechless of wat i m now while 5 months b4,i'm a the most happiest guy in the world!...Wanna take tis opportunity say 'THANK YOU vry much dear and SORRY vry much dear'........tmr exam lo..i wan study after bath.She say wan someone who can be strong in his will...

1st day

..........................................................hi blog.today is my 1st time blogging.feel weird.mayb too borin or maybe too much problem.bt one thing i noe.blogging is not like essay.As i noe i can write watever i write.Today onwards i'll put all my heart prob to u buddy.Actually at tis time i should be sleeping as i'm too tired.Hardly slept for 5 hrs.bt something has been bothering me since vry vry long....almost 2 n half months past,u r stil in my memory..everytime i listen to slow n soft songs i'll think of u sud,my heart goes weak,i became no energy,feel like so vulnerable tat i wanted to close the light n squad somewhere at a corner barriering myself frm the outer world.BUDDY.......can i ask u something???can i?...SOBX..Y SHE LEAVE ME?is it i'm bad looking?is it coz my attitude?is it coz my background?is it ALL MY FAULT????tell me pls.................................................................................................................................................................................................i hate myself...i cant do anything now!I"M helpless!watching her walk away from me,steps by steps,without turning her head the last time..i saw her figure getting smaller n smaller..she's GONE...i understand now the feeling of most my frens cry when they express their love prob 2 me.I tot it was silly, 'Eh tis gal dowan,tis world stil got so many gals' i told them.SORRYYY!!.....i'm WRONG...though the world have damn many plenty gals bt....DO U NOE????DO U NOE???DO u noe tat????.....SHE'S the oni one U lOVE................................................................................................................................cant imagine my eyes getting red now..............................'DEAR,i love u,did u miss me??'.........................'HUBBY,i miss u soooooooooo much,i love u!'...............................'Forever?'....................'Ya,and ever'..........................'Come to hubby,let me hug my babe'...........................'Hugsss'............................'Hugss'.........................GOOD BYE MY DEAR~I MISS U.....i dono y my tears drop tat easily when i m thinking of u...





XXX,......i dono evrything now...i'm confuse in myself oso....i dono...i juz noe...I NEED U ALOT A LOT A LOT A LOT A LOT A LOT....i had no chance 2 contact wif u after the last arguement... :( ..bt....to be frank i never regret purposely make tat arguement terrible n make u cry.i noe tat would be better 4 us....At least u forgot me tis bad,rude GUY....heard tat u got new bf..............................................................................................................................................

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good...... :-) old one don go,new one don come ma..'eh the old bad one keep 4 wat le,alwys noe make u sad n put u in a difficult situation,aiya...'............haizz...TO ME NOW WAT OSO IS FAKE!!!I DONO HOW TO BE BAC MYSELF..........I WAN U LA DEAR!!!!I REALLY WAN!!!!!!DON GO PLS.........PLS.................I DONO HOW 2 TAM GALS......I DONO HOW 2 PROVE MY HEART.......I DONO HOW 2 TALK......BT I REALLY REALLY LOVE U USING ALL THE THINGS I HAVE,EVEN UNTIL THE VRY VRY LAST MOMENT MY BREATHE STOP N MY EYE CLOSE,I WAN U BE BY MY SIDE..........................................................sobx....sobx...sobx.....