Reset..

HI buddy,today is kinda a fresh day 4 me..since last thursday i bac to hometown,never fail to not drink everyday until yest nite,drink n vomit..3 of my best fren scolded me..they say wanted to tel my parents n say they cant stand.they scolded me like dog.

'she wont like a 'duo luo' ppl like u'.

'she don accept u coz u never change'

'wat can u do by drinking,myself drink cola'

dear fren,ya..u r rite.i wake le.i'll press the reset button n go start a new life in sg.promis i wont do wat i did in kl n taiping.u guys must take care of her when i'm not around.she safe n sound=i fang xin go.later need go ching beng,den tonite pack thing.tmr early morning i go.so buddy blog n dear frens..thnx..

til next time.wanna take tis opportunity to say i miss my kl fren too..

victor yong,victor ooi,raymond,min yi,adam,alvin,andrew n goh!got time i go find u guys!STEAMBOAT again!!

last farewell

'zhen mo ying chang,wo de bei shang,shi qu ni de ti fang,ni de fa siang,shan de zhong mang,wo yi jing geng bu shang,bi shang yan jing,hai nen kan jian.ni li qu de hen ji............................'

'fan zhe wo men de zhao pian,xiang lian ruo ying ruo xian,qu nian de 'shan yue',wo men xiao de hen tian,kan zhe ni ku qi de lian,dui zhe wo shuo zai jian,lai bu ji ting jian,ni yi zhou de hen yuan,ye qu ni yi jing fang qi wo,ye qu yi jing hen nan hui tou,wo zhe tou shi zi ji chuo guo,qing zai gei wo yi ge li you shuo ni bu ai wo~~...........

tis 2 weeks happen too many thing le.it giv me big ' da ji'.maybe i'm stil weak.when can i grow...i stop kl's course.come bac to taiping.despite around a week here den i'm goin to sg,bt things still happen..i hope i can b bac to kl..i tot i adi forgot u.bt WHY..WHY i did not..suffering.

sms u to get a chance of meeting out last time bt got rejected n stated tat would be the last time u reply me....i felt...myself useless.ya..dumb....i hv no more aim in life..i use fren hp cal u yest nite..'hello,can u not close my phone?'

'of course i wont'

do u noe who m i?'

'hua thiam ma'

'i'm jun wen'

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dear,the 1st date he had rite after the trip is the concert.we went bt after tat we went er huang san.tat time is kinda funny..we did smthing den i almost fal down.lol..still remember?u make a sticker of my name n gave some to me,some u stick it on ur wallet.urs u stick it on my wallet..i oso dono how bring bac home.u oso wrote a lyrics 4 me..

once u cried asking me not to leave u,i remember i cant ans u..if time turn bac,i'll anser wif confident 'NEVER'.

dono should how now..dono...ppl say drink a lot cna be fat de..i dowan.wan smoke bt christine say canot.to all my love one,take care...dear u too..god bless u..

hi~

dear....i juz finish apply scholarship....trying to hentam oni..i'm goin to singapore in april...

last time i remember even i leave u awhile oni(30min),i receive 3 to 4 msg of urs....haha..

so stick meh u last time..bt i reli like it...sry 4 everything i did to u..stay happy n pretty..

oh ya,during april or may last year i did surgery ma.haha.i bluff u say i'm goin to die.finally u reli cry le...aiyo...tat time i got bit surprise how deep u love me..to be frank i oso surprise how things changes so quickly..like a dream...Sigh cant help much..so........................................................................................................................................................................

good luck in studies n koko n sports..remember the daemon u say u wan?i'll alwys remember tat moment how u hold me tightly n keep begging me to buy u 1 as u say it is cute..

dear........i reli love u a lot...reli de..

bad day

14th of march....7 more days to 21st..haiz...scare...i reli dowan tis type of suffering feeling anymore...pls.. i decided to go singapore..leaving beginnging of april..so guys n gals,fren n family n XXX here i wanted to bid all of u a pre-farewell..i don wan to stay here anymore..it is not a nice place..i don like...

Juz now at 2 smthign i took a nap.i dreamt of u...a scary nightmare...i m vry vry scare...i don like tat scary feeling...i saw u n ur bf kiss in a house.I mangae to watch juz oni from outside..When i try to go near i cant!Like a barrier appeared in front..slowly the images weaken n blurry..my fee...i dono how to describe..i juz now i reli hope tat doesnt happen..I DOWAN!! :((((( :((.. later next picture comeas out.dono happen in wat sort of place..bt both of u sittiing in a table,chatting happily..I'm at another table juz by ur side.I alwys wanted to chat wif u wif my forcible smile hopefully to gain ur attention.U look at me wif frowns as thu as i'm ur enemy or even worst. :( den u turn away to ur bf.Tat time ur smile n grin came out naturally... My heart sank totally...It's a;rite i told myself.Not the 1st time..I must be strong ya..ok..

Next thing u guys planned to marry.i overheard.Chatting on tat topic u guys laugh n flirt...on top of the world..Ya..same..i'm stil beside..i was looking n sadden deeply..cant do anything bt listen n stil put hope n pray hard don..I was vry vry fallen til i don think anyone can cure me..

Yest nite i went club.haiz...haiz..haiz...i was drunk..b4 tat,i saw a guy wearing the same couple shirt i wore when i was wif her..haiz..i dono is he the guy,,Bt i hope not..tat stupid asshole eat 'shake head pill' wif his fren n those form 2 gals..dance around...I really don hope he is the guy..afternoon i went to temple.I thnx 4 my result.I pray hard her bf isnt him n hopefuuly those guai guai 1,treat her vry good,have good temper,give her happiness,don make her feel stres wif him,can protect her den i think tis is the best thing i can hope.

one day,2 choice come in front me...she choose u bac or she wif a vry good guy,relli good in everything..i afraid i take the second choice..I'm goin to leave le...beta don involve in her life..i'll study hard..after i'm succes,hopefuuly i can get her bac.she say she wan 5 C..

FOR U I'M GOING 4 IT!!I PROMISE U I WONT DISAPPOINT U AGAIN!!.....i'll try to stand up...dear...i love u...

now tidying up my bag,goin bac to hometown..feeling bit scare.hopefully everything will normal..don feel like goin out during daylight...juz now when tidying bag,sud tot of the sticker name u gave me last time,and the lyrics u write 4 me........walao eh,don wan write blog d la.alwys when write oso feel like crying...lol......erm..thnx..thnx 4 everything...maybe my bro desmond say correct.Keep as memory..If i reli love her,same old stuff-don make her life miserable(don let her see me,i'm a bastard).she feel stress when see me.I take tis opportunity thnx des...i appreciate.U advise n help me when i'm totally down like a ghost.Good ppl like u got good balasan.talking bout ghost......Yest in fren room,he told me tat he met a ghost.she keep on disturb him.strangle,hold his hand,n scream....I damn scare la...Bt he say don,make ur heart brave n fight bac next time so tat ur soul is strong.....Now i realise tat living in tis world isnt easy..So goodluck to everyone in everything o...

wan eat lunch d :)

Dark & Quiet i m Used to it

Again,it is 230am.Midnite d.The darkness and quietness i adi use to it as time pass.Sadly,y cant i get use to the loneliness of being away from u.I try to be tough.Ppl say time wash everything away.Every nite i'm asking myself.Is it true?????Should be gua.Bt the fact seems opposite.Adi 3 months.............U stil appear in my memory from time to time....

hehe....Dono y.sometimes although missing u and cant get u bac to my life forever n ever,i wont forget u.I laugh to myself at times.Like now,i thinking when we r together at tis time if both of us haven slip,i'll be talking on the phone wif u in the living hall n u will be on the bed...I love to kacau u..Den when u like 'teh' me,i'll tam u bac..be4 we close phone,I vry naughty 1.Purposely don say the 3 magic words....haha...U will say ' wait 1st'....Den i'll say 'Yes......?'..U'll reply 'Er i wan listen"...haha...okok la...'NITE NITE DEAR I LOVE U.MUAKX'
Den oni u satisfied to slip.Haizz.....Sometimes hope time turn bac n stay at tat period forever how good.

Bout beginnning of NOvember,u changed d.Ur feeling towards me decrease...I sense it de..bt i dowan to giv up.I did all my best to repair it all..Maybe i'm too in a rush or too afraid of losing,makes me not natural 4 who i m coz i noe i'm going off to KL.Luckily my wish to have a candlelight dinner with u is fulfilled.besides tat,we go trip together oso...I'm vry happy...

Tell u wat buddy,I really love her a lot..REALLY.i vry sad from the 1st day she say goodbye to me.Crying stunned me,suffer overwhelmed me.I lost my confident.I cant do anything........sry sry sry...Lately i found tat i bit scare to look ppl eye to eye.My hands shiver itself at times all of sudden.I dowan other gals as i promise since the beginning of our relation.i noe i did break tis promise n i deserved wat i got now..I'm trying to prove now..I'll wait wait n wait...I dono bout everything in tis world wide world......BT I JUZ NOE N CONFIRM MY LOVE ATO U NEVER EVER FADE..dear i love u...bt i dono n cant express..ppl tot i'm a happy go lucky person.....How i hope i m.

Buddy,feeling life is useless after break is smthing vry stupid in many ppl's view.Guess i m one the useless guy.I learn how to ignore ppl's thinknig.haiz...Walking out the street knock by a car,die of food poisoning,other accidents happen....All tis is nothing to me since u r not by my side.Seriously...sobx....sobx........

Love u.Love is pain.Everything is my fault.i say it coz i noe n realise.too stick,too demanding,make u too stress,,,,,,I"M a useless bf..Useless ppl don die consider good d.break serve u less den wat u deserve.Eat shit NJW!!U sux..I vry beh siok u damn long d.U can be someone happy n love by a perfect gal bt see wat u had done to urself...I curse u die early.No future,sui forever!

bye bye.......bye bye.......... .... ...