bad day

14th of march....7 more days to 21st..haiz...scare...i reli dowan tis type of suffering feeling anymore...pls.. i decided to go singapore..leaving beginnging of april..so guys n gals,fren n family n XXX here i wanted to bid all of u a pre-farewell..i don wan to stay here anymore..it is not a nice place..i don like...

Juz now at 2 smthign i took a nap.i dreamt of u...a scary nightmare...i m vry vry scare...i don like tat scary feeling...i saw u n ur bf kiss in a house.I mangae to watch juz oni from outside..When i try to go near i cant!Like a barrier appeared in front..slowly the images weaken n blurry..my fee...i dono how to describe..i juz now i reli hope tat doesnt happen..I DOWAN!! :((((( :((.. later next picture comeas out.dono happen in wat sort of place..bt both of u sittiing in a table,chatting happily..I'm at another table juz by ur side.I alwys wanted to chat wif u wif my forcible smile hopefully to gain ur attention.U look at me wif frowns as thu as i'm ur enemy or even worst. :( den u turn away to ur bf.Tat time ur smile n grin came out naturally... My heart sank totally...It's a;rite i told myself.Not the 1st time..I must be strong ya..ok..

Next thing u guys planned to marry.i overheard.Chatting on tat topic u guys laugh n flirt...on top of the world..Ya..same..i'm stil beside..i was looking n sadden deeply..cant do anything bt listen n stil put hope n pray hard don..I was vry vry fallen til i don think anyone can cure me..

Yest nite i went club.haiz...haiz..haiz...i was drunk..b4 tat,i saw a guy wearing the same couple shirt i wore when i was wif her..haiz..i dono is he the guy,,Bt i hope not..tat stupid asshole eat 'shake head pill' wif his fren n those form 2 gals..dance around...I really don hope he is the guy..afternoon i went to temple.I thnx 4 my result.I pray hard her bf isnt him n hopefuuly those guai guai 1,treat her vry good,have good temper,give her happiness,don make her feel stres wif him,can protect her den i think tis is the best thing i can hope.

one day,2 choice come in front me...she choose u bac or she wif a vry good guy,relli good in everything..i afraid i take the second choice..I'm goin to leave le...beta don involve in her life..i'll study hard..after i'm succes,hopefuuly i can get her bac.she say she wan 5 C..

FOR U I'M GOING 4 IT!!I PROMISE U I WONT DISAPPOINT U AGAIN!!.....i'll try to stand up...dear...i love u...